| It's been awhile.. |
[04 Dec 2009|03:53am] |
My life..is in purgatory...
Not heaven and not hell just in between and it's not a fun place to be in. I hate the school I'm in so bad I cry about it every once in awhile because I don't know what to do. I invested so much time into it and I am so close to finishing but this was time I will never get back. I'm so miserable I can't wake up to get to school on time anymore. It's taking away my passion for art, and that's probably the single worse thing of all.
Art has become too confusing to me, because of all the ideas put in my head that I have to question everything I do before I do it and stop half way because I'm so confident that what I'm doing just ISN'T good enough. Is this normal? ...
I don't know who to talk to...I don't know what to do...sometimes I just bust into tears cause I'm so unsure of myself now
I also am incapable of showing any of these emotions to anyone's face because I would take it as a sign of weakness..I don't want to tell people I'm weak because I'm scared of becoming dependent on others cause they'll just get tired of it...
Also I HATE my professor that I have in a few hours. He makes me feel so terrible T_T
I don't know what to do and what is right and what is wrong anymore when I used to be so fucking sure.
D:
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| Hey guys life update no. 2 |
[28 Jun 2008|12:07am] |
Yes I'm still in a relationship with him~
Its been almost 10 months yay!
Secondly I got A's and B's for my first semester...
For my second semester I got 4 A's 3 B's and a C NUUUUUUUUUUU A C!!!
I'm so disappointed ;_; I will try harder next time!
Also when I'm done with my AAS degree for illustration at FIT I would seriously like to go into toy design to finish my BFA...
It's insanely difficult program to get into so I'm told seeing as they only let 22 people in a year out of 200 that apply!
I really would like to try hard! I want to do this!
I just hope I can! I really do! Don't ask why toy design cause I have no idea myself!
I'm just happy doing things that are art related, I really do think I would be happy going on with this major..
=) Oh i'm on summer vacation now so I'd really like to hang out and visit some people~!
Also i may be putting up some work i did during the semester~!
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| College first semester, lots to tell you all! |
[27 Jan 2008|07:51am] |
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Probabaly NO ONE reads this anymore..but leave me some comments if anything.
I miss everyone I haven't seen in awhile you know who you are.
SO i managed to do very well on my grades...
I took 9 classes, Got 2 A's an A-, Two B's, A B+ and a B-...I'm missing two grades cause my old bat of a teacher didn't input my grades.
Taking those 9 classes only made me realize two things, I can take a heavy course load and do well but taking said heavy course load is HARD! So I won't do it again I'm taking 7 classes now instead of 9. My vacation offically ends on monday and for those who were wondering where I was I went to puerto rico to vacate.
It was a very refreshing vacation and I feel great now. School starts tomorrow and I'm kind of excited.
On another note I'm happily stuck with this guy:
We looked kinda defeated cause we don't sleep much and we were on the ferry lol.
Soon to be 5 months! Whoo!
lol I don't look like that anymore...I managed to change haircut/color atleast 3 times in the past few months.
Everything right now is going good, I can generally deal with life. I'm aiming for More A's this semester. I still want to become an illustrator, just need to figure out what kind of jobs I want to get and what not. Alright all leave me a comment let me know you're alive, maybe we can chill.
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[22 Oct 2007|10:54pm] |
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I'm probably the loneliest of all..
Knowing all these people and yet not one to be around with on a regular basis...
Not even having a good friend or two in my school is really hard and frustrating...
::sighs::
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| DYSFUNCSHUN |
[27 Sep 2007|12:53pm] |
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...
Yeah I learned one of those family secrets
I need to get away from my mom...
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I need to do something...i need to not lose my mind
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| LOL @ ME |
[27 Aug 2007|10:14am] |
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I don't believe I will be looking for love anymore.
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| I give up |
[20 Jun 2007|09:12pm] |
Like I got into FIT
and thats cool and all
But no i can't get a summer job..
Cuz i gotta go to the eop program..
SCREWED
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| Jesus must fucking HATE me |
[15 Jun 2007|11:48pm] |
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Shit been going down hill for about a month now
This is BULLSHIT
I need to get the fuck outta my house my mom make me wanna hang my fucking self
Among other fucking things
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[06 Jun 2007|09:14pm] |
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this weekend better be fun :)
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| I fucking hate it all..just when it looks u it goes down |
[29 May 2007|10:11pm] |
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i'm too poor to afford going to college
so..whatever..
School said they not givin me much..I feel like god was like bitch i'ma spite you hard
I really didn't want to have to stay in the city for school but i guess I have to and I'm pissed.
I fuckin hate life so much right now...
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| Yo...Malta |
[29 May 2007|08:31pm] |
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Makes you feel DUMB lazy...
ugh I had 3 today....
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| So far |
[26 May 2007|09:00pm] |
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Savannah has awarded me a $5,000 Dollar scholarship per year.
Artistic Honors Scholarship
overall it will be $20,000 for all 4 years
:)
yay!
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| So... |
[24 May 2007|09:30pm] |
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I Got Into Savannah College Of Art And Design
But I Needs Moneys To Go D:
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| OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! |
[21 May 2007|08:42pm] |
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SO I TOTALLY
GOT INTO
SAVANNAH COLLEGE OF ART AND DESIGN!
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| UGH! |
[09 May 2007|09:56pm] |
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Men can sometimes be such irresponsible...
WANKS!
>:
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[19 Apr 2007|09:21pm] |
yo mama...
::eveyone insert a yo mama joke::
seriously
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| Smile for Me baby |
[07 Apr 2007|11:01pm] |
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So I got in contact with an old friend.
Her name is Crystal, she's 19 and moved to Florida when I was in the 7th grade.
We haven't seen each other since then.
Two girls who grew up and still haven't really changed at heart.
We stopped talking in sophomore year of high school at Laguardia. For so many reasons we couldn't keep in much contact but I always tried to be there for her and vice versa.
So a couple of days I see her screen name, I imed her...no reply
Next day...I see her sn pop up again...I im her
"Hi!"
As we talked I burst into tears, I checked out her myspace...still the same face on a woman's body..lol She's moving back to New York :) Only she'll be 5 hours away...but its okay hopefully we'll hang out more.
We talked and talked for about 30-45 minutes and it was just like old times.
Talking to her just made me think that I should put more effort into my relationships with others. It's really difficult to deal with people who live so far away. Even then I would like to let all my friends know that I do love and cherish them. No matter how far, even if I don't see you guys that often you all are in my thoughts. I am very grateful for everything and I hope I can make more time to see everyone in the near future.
:)
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| NERDY GIRLIE! |
[06 Apr 2007|02:25am] |
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So I totally have the death note movie :)
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| WONDA WOMANNNN |
[05 Apr 2007|02:14am] |
Your results:
You are Wonder Woman
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| The Flash |
| 85% |
| Hulk |
| 80% |
| Spider-Man |
| 70% |
| Supergirl |
| 70% |
| Superman |
| 65% |
| Robin |
| 50% |
| Catwoman |
| 50% |
| Green Lantern |
| 45% |
| Batman |
| 35% |
| Iron Man |
| 35% |
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You are a beautiful princess
with great strength of character.
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Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz
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| Utter Hate |
[23 Mar 2007|09:00pm] |
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I know some dumbass people at laguardia and y'all suck major toe fungus.
I CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE Y'ALL CAUSE YA SUCK!
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